Celebrate the life of little Adrianna Read

Celebration!!

I just got back from the most amazing funeral ever. I been to some that are just so depressing and sad, but this one truly lifted my spirits and I am so glad I went!!
My senior year in highschool, I had a seminary class at about 6:30 in the morning. I met this realy awsome and fun girl, who's name is Natillie. We became realy good friends, and I often think that she was a better friend to me than I was to her. The last half of my senior year I ended up transferring to a different school, and I remember her eyes twinkling with tears the day she found out I was leaving. That meant so much to me! We still lived in the same area, but now we would only see eachother during seminary and not during school anymore.
After I graduated, we didn't see eachother very much at all, and the last time I have seen her in person was when I got married to my dear husband almost 6 years ago. I finally found her on facebook.com a couple of months ago, and found out that she was married too, and was pregnant with a little baby girl! I was so excited for her!! And so excited to have come in contact with her again.
Yesterday, I looked at her facebook status and my heart litterally broke for her. Her sweet little 6 week old baby girl Adrianna passed away. At first I couldn't believe it, but then all I wanted to do was cry for her and hug her! I never got to meet the little angel and I wish I had been a better friend to go and see her.
I went to the funeral today, and I am amazed at the strength Natillie and her husband Joe have shown. She sang a beautiful song to her little girl and then talked about her, and told us how much she loved her baby. She talked about the last time she got to hold her, and how she didn't think she would ever get to hold her again, and how she just felt so rich! She talked about being a little jealous of her, because what she has done in her 26+ years of being here, Adrianna was able to accomplish it in just 6 weeks. Her ability to lighten our spirits with giggles while she spoke, showed me how strong she is, even though I know this has got to be such a hard thing for her.
At the beginning of the funeral, she got up and said she wanted everyone to snuggle. So everyone got up and gave her hugs. Natillie has always had such a happy and loving personality, and for her to make it that much easier for everyone else to feel happy, just realy was neat!
After the funeral was over, she was giving hugs again and everyone that came up to her, she gave the biggest and longest hugs to. When it was my turn, she realy showed me how much she cares for me, even though we never see eachother, and I walked away from there, thinking, what an amazing friend I have missed out on all these years. I realy hope I will never take hers or anyone elses friendships for granted. It meant so much to me to me to hug her today, and to watch her say goodbye to her precious angel with such strength was just so uplifting and hope filling to my own self. I went to the funeral with a fear of how this traumatic event would affect me with my own fears of making sure my little ones are healthy and well taken care of, and with me, and left with peace in my heart knowing that I am so blessed to have the family and friends that I have, and my little girls, and that no matter what happens, we have a loving heavenly father that is in charge of everything, and he loves us and if we remember him, we will always have the comfort and joy that we need to get through this life. Thank you Natillie and Joe for your amazing examples. I know it will probably be rough for a little while, but I know you will do just fine!
I love you!!
Love, Julia

Wednesday

I am thankful for my angels and for their help in orchestrating the events and blessings in my life that I need and want.
I am thankful for my house, and for the shelter it gives.
I am thankful for my warm bed, and good food especially at this time of year when it is cold outside and there are others who are less fortunate.
I am thankful for our income, and to be able to stay at home with my kids during the day.
I am thankful that they are all asleep right now and relaxing.
I am thankful for my new neice and wish I could kiss her and squish her.
I am thankful for my friends.
I am thankful for my relatives.
I am thankful for my religion and my ward and the good people in it.
I am thankful for my calling as visiting teaching supervisor, and for the opportunity I have to go visit lovely ladies in the ward.
I am thankful for my visiting teaching partner and for her happy personality.
I am thankful for Christmas!
I am thankful for my new dishwasher, and hope to get it installed soon, so I can stop washing everything by hand. hehe
I am thankful for my kids, and my wonderful husband and for the happiness they bring to me.
I am thankful for my camera, so I can take pictures of their cute faces.
I am thankful for my computer.
I am thankful for my van, and for Chris' bike.
I am thankful for chocolate and for the natural endorphines it releases. hehe
I am thankful for healthy food and water, and for good health overall.
I am thankful for the good feeling I get when I am thankful, because it makes me even more thankfull!!

New baby!

Its a girl!!
Kerissa had her little Jessa Alice Morgan at around 11:40 something p.m., on December 1st 2008.
She was 6 lbs. 15 oz. and 20 1/2 inches long. My mom says she looks just like her older sister did. Way cute!
I haven't been able to see her yet and its killing me! No photos either! I know my mom is working on it though, so hopefully soon. I wish I could get out there earlier, but I might not get to go out until this weekend. Bummer.
We have had a baby every year for the last several years in our family, so now that it is going to be 2009 soon, the pressure is on. I am nominating my sister Tara, hehe, or Gwen!
Babies are so fun!!

I believe there are angels among us, sent down to us from somewhere up above.

I love that song "Angels among us." It is so true!
I have been practicing a lot of energy clearing and asking my angels for things, and I have been quite emotional over it the last week. Some amazing personal things have happend and I only wish I would have known about all this sooner.
I have had a pretty awsome life, wonderful family, the best parents ever, a strong testimony of the gospel. So many blessings! I am quite relieved though to be learning something new and totally awsome!
I have learned recently how to ask your angels for things, and that if you don't ask them for things, they go unemployed. I believe they are a tool given to us from our heavenly father, that we can use to help us throughout our lives.
Carol tuttle encourages us to write down the things we need and want in life, and one way to do it, is to write our angels in letter form. Thanking them for their help, and using gratitude and humility and faith. I learned that you need to have your desire and belief on the same level. If your belief isn't the same level like on a scale of 1-10, as your desire is on the scale, the negative energy will make it hard for your desires to be brought about. If they are both a 10 though, the things you ask for are guaranteed!
I wrote a letter to my angels last week, and I have been amazed at how fast things have shown up. I asked my angels to help me get 2 more daycare kids, that will bring love and joy into our home. About 4 days later, my brother in law called me to ask me if I would like to watch his 2 younger kids starting January! I am so excited!! We also recently had our dishwasher break down, and I asked for them to help us either find the knowledge or the money to get it fixed. Last night, my mom told me that her and my dad have a dishwasher for us. They had been looking online for one for us, and then realized that they have one sitting in their basement not being used! Those were just two of the things that have been showing up all week. I am so thankful for the help of my angels, and my family members who were being so thoughtful of us, and especially my heavenly father.
So go and write your angels a letter. You will be suprised at how quickly they want to help you!!
My sister is in the hospital this morning, she is having her 3rd baby!! No one knows what it is yet, except my grandma. Everyone thinks its a girl. That was my first thought too, and have thought that the whole time, but I was thinking this morning, "what if everyone thinks its a girl, and it comes out as a boy!" That would be a fun suprise! Its been almost 3 hours since she left to the hospital, so I am hoping I hear some more news soon!!