I just got back from the most amazing funeral ever. I been to some that are just so depressing and sad, but this one truly lifted my spirits and I am so glad I went!!
My senior year in highschool, I had a seminary class at about 6:30 in the morning. I met this realy awsome and fun girl, who's name is Natillie. We became realy good friends, and I often think that she was a better friend to me than I was to her. The last half of my senior year I ended up transferring to a different school, and I remember her eyes twinkling with tears the day she found out I was leaving. That meant so much to me! We still lived in the same area, but now we would only see eachother during seminary and not during school anymore.
After I graduated, we didn't see eachother very much at all, and the last time I have seen her in person was when I got married to my dear husband almost 6 years ago. I finally found her on facebook.com a couple of months ago, and found out that she was married too, and was pregnant with a little baby girl! I was so excited for her!! And so excited to have come in contact with her again.
Yesterday, I looked at her facebook status and my heart litterally broke for her. Her sweet little 6 week old baby girl Adrianna passed away. At first I couldn't believe it, but then all I wanted to do was cry for her and hug her! I never got to meet the little angel and I wish I had been a better friend to go and see her.
I went to the funeral today, and I am amazed at the strength Natillie and her husband Joe have shown. She sang a beautiful song to her little girl and then talked about her, and told us how much she loved her baby. She talked about the last time she got to hold her, and how she didn't think she would ever get to hold her again, and how she just felt so rich! She talked about being a little jealous of her, because what she has done in her 26+ years of being here, Adrianna was able to accomplish it in just 6 weeks. Her ability to lighten our spirits with giggles while she spoke, showed me how strong she is, even though I know this has got to be such a hard thing for her.
At the beginning of the funeral, she got up and said she wanted everyone to snuggle. So everyone got up and gave her hugs. Natillie has always had such a happy and loving personality, and for her to make it that much easier for everyone else to feel happy, just realy was neat!
After the funeral was over, she was giving hugs again and everyone that came up to her, she gave the biggest and longest hugs to. When it was my turn, she realy showed me how much she cares for me, even though we never see eachother, and I walked away from there, thinking, what an amazing friend I have missed out on all these years. I realy hope I will never take hers or anyone elses friendships for granted. It meant so much to me to me to hug her today, and to watch her say goodbye to her precious angel with such strength was just so uplifting and hope filling to my own self. I went to the funeral with a fear of how this traumatic event would affect me with my own fears of making sure my little ones are healthy and well taken care of, and with me, and left with peace in my heart knowing that I am so blessed to have the family and friends that I have, and my little girls, and that no matter what happens, we have a loving heavenly father that is in charge of everything, and he loves us and if we remember him, we will always have the comfort and joy that we need to get through this life. Thank you Natillie and Joe for your amazing examples. I know it will probably be rough for a little while, but I know you will do just fine!
I love you!!