tuesday

Good Good Day!!!
Well, as I stated in my e-mail yesterday, I had a good jump start to my day.
I am happy to report that I got counters so clean, I didn't want to put anything back on them!
I had to, but it looks nice and organized and fun now.
I found the missing part to my blender!!!!
So excited!

Breakfast-
can't remember : (
oh, ya, fritos

Lunch-
can't remember : (
oh, ya, fritos

Dinner-
spinach, and berry smoothie
homemade kidney bean, onion, garlic, pepper flake, tomatoe Burrito, at 10:00 pm about

um, so I kind of reported my morning yesterday, so I will go from there. I played on the puter for a little while, then I made the kids toast cheese sandwiches for lunch, for some reason I skipped it.
Then I picked up brother 1 and then put the littles to bed. Silly me didn't get dinner in the crockpot until 1:30, thinking it only needed 6 hours, well come to find out later it needed 8 hours.
I think I cleaned a bit more in the kitchen after that, and referied the kids a bit.
Realy it was kind of a blur after that, but I think I was still working in the kitchen for most of the day.
Husband came home, and I got ready to go to my sisters class. All the kids got picked up, and I made everybody a spinach berry smoothie, I love how you can't taste the spinach. : )
Then I headed out to my sisters house, called her to see if SR 201 was open, to find out it isn't, ending up in my thankfullness that I called. I hit about every stop light up to 3500 s. and then while I was on I-80, I decided I was kind of scared of my tires ruptering, so I decided to go a bit slower than the speed limit to be safe, and tried not to imagine what it would feel like to end up swerving into the gutter full of water if it did break.
I made it safely to my sisters house, and learned all about Marine Phytoplankten, and how it came about, what the benefits are, how it differes from others products with it in it, that it is realy healthy stuff, and I need to convince Husband to let me try some. : )
I also learned that my neice likes to give a tour of the house, even if her mom doesn't want her to, hehe, and that my sisters bathroom is realy clean, and cute and I am jealous. : ) Thou shalt not covet thy neighbors Bathroom or phytoplankten....
I bought the lemon oil and peppermint oil that you can ingest, instead of finding out the hard way that you can't ingest certain brands of it, namely the aromatheraputic kind, just get it through my sister and she will know what is best for you.
I just about walked out the door with her money, but I was so greatfull she reminded me to pay. : O hehe
Thank you my sister
Then I headed home.
Got home safely, and talked to Husband about what I learned (o.k., so I talked his ear off a little, he should be used to it).
We then discussed civilly the fact that herbs are just as good for you as exercise........
O.k., there may have been a little bit of competition there, but we worked it out. We always do. : ) I ate a burrito out of the homemade kidney refried bean mix from the crockpot, which just barely got done, then we preceded upstairs to carry the conversation of phytoplankten.
Then we went to bed.
Thing 1 woke me up sometime in the night, stating she wet her bed and needed to go potty, I thought to myself, "why does she choose to wet the bed first and then go potty?" Poor girl, she slept on the floor afterward, and I went to give Thing 2 Kisses too, and she smiled at me and said " HI". So sweet!
I went back to bed so greatfull, for the middle of the night moments with my little baby angels, and then layed there awake, and layed there awake, my mind was to full of the excitement of having a class at my house to have my sister teach more about Phytoplankten (that word is starting to sound weird). I counted all the people I feel could benefit from it, and then said a prayer to know if they would want to be invited and that they would want to. My sister did a realy good job teaching, and I am so excited for her to continue teaching healthy stuff. : )
I must have fallen asleep at some point, because I did wake up this morning.

So my goals for today are,

actually read the flylady e-mails instead of deleting them
accomplish the challange for today
keep my kitchen clean
maybe gut my dining room
have fun with the kids
make dinner on time (we are having my cousins recipe for the wedding chow chow, minus the corn, but I am excited!)
Debate on wether I should go to a baby shower or not. I think I will but wont stay long, I will have both kids with me.
Buy paper towels
Eat good
Love myself, so I can love others


well, I hope you all have a happy healthy eating day, full of happy moments to support you through the day!








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I don't know how I did it, but I have jump started my morning, and I am feeling scarily productive today(poor chris). Yesterday, I cleaned up my kitchen as good as I could without falling asleep. Then I made sure to have a good dinner with everyone in the family sitting at the dining room table together. (hard sometimes)Husband is off of overtime for a bit, but still has a regular schedule, which makes it nice because he will be getting home at a consistant time in the evening, so we can go back to our routine. So we had a 15 min pickup after dinner, and did another load of dishes. I went to bed at a pretty good time, well o.k., it was like 11:30, but I went to "the market" and got some groceries at 9:30, so by the time I put everything away, and looked up the health benefits of corn oil, it was about that time. I still slept realy well, and when I woke up this morning, I felt awake. It was time for some daycare kids to come so I hurried and got dressed and put my contacts in. The kids were still asleep, so it made me want to lay down and sleep some more on the couch, but something mysterious happened when I reached the bottom of the stairs. My subconsious remembered I had a load of clean dishes waiting for me in the dishwasher!I made the effort to go put the dishes in my wanting cupboards, they shouted for joy (o.k. not realy, but it felt like it) as I carefully placed each dish inside. Then, as if it were not enough, my arms reached for the dirty pans that didn't fit into the dishwasher last night, and I started to load the dishwasher again!! Soon I had a mostly full load of big dishes that don't normally fit in a dishwasher load with the everday dishes, and have been sitting on my counter awaiting their turn, and I put soap in and started it again!! I am now addicted to running a dish washing load!What will I do when there are no dirty dishes!(oh trust me by the end of the day there will be plenty, phew! )Then my eyes wandered to the pile of stuff that just doesn't belong on my counter that has been pushed into a corner on my counter. Like a mini cupcake stand, and a bulk box that used to hold a bunch of single boxes of mac and cheese, which was now filled with a glue gun, ribbon, and some other things I didn't recognize. And just wait, when I was decluttering that part, I found something I have been wondering about! My gum ball machine! Yay, my happy little fingers washed it all up, and I already have wonderfull ideas on how to torture the kids with it!hehehe, just kidding.......sort of. They will be whipped into shape by the end of the day, by earning pennies for their goodness, and losing them if they don't behave, then when its time to leave, they get to satisfy their cravings of the bright colored m&m candies waiting to reach their little mouths, so they don't melt in thier hands. (sorry, I am on one this morning). So now I have a clean counter top, and my next project is to clean out the microwave/toaster oven corner, that is cluttered with my pans and utinsel bucket. I am cleaning out the congestion and it feels good!I am so glad I am on a roll this morning, and I can't wait to see everything I can accomplish before I crash at nap time. Maybe I will even get my office stuff organized!! : ) Anyway, My meals for yesterday......nothing for breakfast realycheese tortilla for lunchlots of cream sicles (where did those come from?)dinner-rice and chop suey, olives, soy sauce, mmmmmmmmmmm Yesterday morning, I didn't want to have a messy kitchen while my pre-school helper was here, so I spent a while getting it cleaned up, it needed it, bad. We talked about moons, the letter K, and the number 11 for pre-school. Then I made lunch while they played outside for a bit. I had to pay her with a check again, because everytime I have cash, I forget to get ones and 5's. We picked up "Big brother" from his bus, and put the littles to bed. Then the kids played on their computer game, while I looked through an IKEA magazine, which has the coolest hangy chair, for 30 bucks, that I am trying to convince Husband of for the kids for Christmas! So cool!Then I went out and surveyed my garden while giving them the gift of life with water. I have concluded my tomatoe plants are going to take over my whole garden box someday. I also, noted my green pepper plants are in abundance of little baby green peppers, and my bean stalk is still yet to fruit, but I will be patient and hope it doesn't grow to the clouds first and let giants, or care bears come down from the clouds. My carrots and beats have grown big with thier leaves, but still are small with thier orange and pink parts. My cucumbers got trampled again, and I have concluded that they are going to an institution for the disturbed called mulch pile university. So sad. I will just have to replant, and make sure "maniac dog's" area is finished first.I played on the puter for a little while, and then Husband came home. I decided I was running late on getting dinner started, so I hopped to it. Good dinner, and the kids ate all of thiers too!I have decided that rice for dinner a few times a week is good. We put the kids to bed, while having a very small FHE moment that could be mistaken for as our normal nightly routine with them. We read about Abinidi, and his prophesying to the mean, and heartless king Noah. I then decided we were in need of some extra food, so I made a list that was only supposed to cost $30, but then after I payed for it all, it was more like $89. Went to maceys and got a bunch of veggies, and ingredients for my cousins recipe, and then butter bean patties on thursday. Came home and decided to check my computer essentials for life, and found empty email inboxes, and a few things on facebook. Then Husband came downstairs and had 2 bowls of raisin bran, and a handfull of MSG free fritos. I then had inspiration to look up corn oil health benefits, which I found to be very little. Doctrine and Covenants section 89 talks about the natural foods meant for our bodies. I find it interesting that it says, wheat for the man, corn for the ox, oats for the horse, and barley for the other animals. The reason this is interesting to me is I know corn is hard for your body to digest. Also, it turns straight into sugar and goes straight into storage even quicker than other starches. Corn oil, is very fattening actually, and experts have tried to prove its benefits, but an article I read said that they have failed miserably to find realy great evidence, even more so than any other studies about other food health benefits. One person said it was a great laugh to hear about the studies they are trying to prove. So what do you think? Is corn oil o.k.? I am wondering this because I realy wanted some chips, and Fritos are the only ones I could find that just have the simple ingredients of corn, corn oil, and salt. Everything else, even if they don't have MSG, has lots of other long, hard to pronounce ingredients. So I bought some fritos, but now I am wondering if I should just avoid them too. We went to bed after that, and that was my day! My goals for today are, finish in the kitchen, keep up my motivation, enjoy the time with the kids, keep the house looking decent, hopefully make it to Kerissa's class, get home at a good time, and get a good nights rest again so I can jump start my day tomorrow too! Well, love you all, and I hope you were able to get through this long e-mail, without getting readers cramp in your eyes. hehe Hope to hear from you and your thoughts on corn oil! Julia, oh ya and have a happy healthy eating day!! : )

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Love and gratitude

Well, I guess it was supposed to happen. Like Master SeeFu (spelling?) on "Uncle Panda" (my 3 year olds title for Kung Fu Panda) says, "there are no accidents".
This last week was realy hard for me. Last thursday I ended up getting sick in my lungs, and it completely drained me of my energy. One of my daycare kids ended up staying home from our house because of pink eye, and that completely stressed me out too. When things stress me out that bad, I tend to either have a burst of determination, or a huge negative lack of energy and nothing gets done. Well, with being sick I ended up not getting anything done that I normally would have to clean things up to prevent the pinkeye in my own home.
I did get better quickly though, and had a great day on my birthday (tuesday), and enjoyed yesterday as well, but I noticed my one year olds eyes looking a little pink eyeish last night. I prayed that it wouldn't turn out bad and that her eyes would be clear in the morning, but I could sense that it wouldn't turn out the way I wanted it to, so I decided I would just try to get some rest, so I would be able to deal with things the next day.
So, I woke up this morning, and her eyes had become more red, and she had a realy runny nose.
I ended up getting 5 kids, so 7 all together and it must have been to much for me. I ended up turning into a basket case, and cried for half the morning, because I just didn't know what to do!
I ended up leaving Kimmy in her crib all day. I just brought her food up to her, and changed her up there. She was o.k., but I felt terrible leaving her, and I missed having her cuteness around me. 2 of my kids were able to go home before noon, which was a huge stress reliever, and I am hoping and praying that they don't end up getting it, for thiers and their parents sake. I ended up feeling drained and depressed so I didn't do much. Then my husband got home in the evening so I made an after hours appt. for her so I could get her some antibiotics. I was hoping that knowing she wasn't so contagious would calm me down and help me get through stuff, but I must have attracted a lot of negative energy, and subconsiously needed something to happen to teach me a lesson or two on not getting overly stressed.
I was a block away from the doctors office, when a police car headed east flipped his lights on. He was stopped at a red light, and I was heading north with a green light. Everybody kept going, even when I braked a little to decide whether I should just go through or not. When everyone kept going, I decided I would just keep going, but then the lady in front of me decided to stop and I ended up hitting her. Hard! Everything happend so fast that any decision made during that time, was confusing. I got out and we both were just in shock at what happend. The police flipping its lights on at the intersection threw us both off, and even after we hit, 4 other cars kept going past us. I think the worst part is I guess my drivers liscence expired on my birthday and I still thought I had a few months left, and our new insurance card didn't get put in the van yet. I was so blessed that I didn't get cited for anything.
I hurt my foot, but it will be fine. I bent my toe back while hitting the brakes and at first I thought it was broken, but now I am sure I just spraned it a bit. My baby was just fine too, and didn't realy even cry from it. She was asleep and it woke her up, but she was soon pulling purell wipes out of a little box I had and thinking it was hilarious and had a cute little smile on her face.
I had a realy hard time feeling happy earlier today with all the stress, but I guess I learned a lesson not to stress myself so much because it just attracts negative energy and then other not so fun things happen. I am sad my van is broken and I hope we can salvage it. I love my van!! I am gratefull that life is still going on, and that peace is around me now. I know things will work out, and I feel so blessed that the police and the woman I hit weren't mean people, and they understood everything that happend. I am gratefull for the witnesses sticking around to make sure the police knew the story and circumstances. I get to call our insurance agency tomorrow and the tow truck to get the rest of it taken care of, but I know it will be o.k.
Well, I better get some sleep so I can have a happy day tomorrow and get things taken care of, so that once again our home will be filled with peace and happiness, love and gratitude. : )

Sunday-choosing a new habit to increase my spiritual well being.

I have had some sickness in my lungs, moving up into my throat and sinuses since thursday, and I kept exherting myself instead of resting. So last night, I decided I was just going to stay home from church and get some rest. Well this morning I was feeling yucky, but I took some ibuprophin and of course felt so much better that, I decided I should ateast go to the sacrament meeting. I was glad I did.
One of the speakers talked about keeping the sabbath day holy. He said that we often hear talks about what not to do on sunday, but that he wanted to focus on what to do on Sundays. He said that when we are engaged in an activity, to ask yourself, "what is it that I am learning from this activity that will help increase my spiritual well being."
Then he gave a challange for everyone to find something new to do on sundays that will help increase your spiritual well being.
When we were little my mom would have us do our S.U.S.S. (spiritually uplifting sabbath stuff)before we could do anything else after church on Sundays.
Usually it included reading our scriptures, or writing a letter, or reading from a church magazine.
When my husband and I got married, I wanted to continue the tradition. Chris and I grew up in very similar home lifes, but a few things were different of course, and one of those things were t.v. rules. I grew up with the rule of no t.v., unless it was a family activity, and no sports. He on the other hand loves sports and that was the first thing he would do when he would come home is turn on a football game or something. I on the other hand like to carry the peacefull feeling I get from our church services into the rest of the day with peace and quiet, but that is also my energy and personality type. So we came up with a compramise that we had to do our s.u.s.s before the t.v. came on.
The sad part of that whole thing is he has stuck to it, while I have horribly slacked on it. Nice huh.
I still don't care to have the t.v. on, and I am quiet and relax a lot, but the important part of actually reading my scriptures or doing something spiritually uplifting has not been practiced as much as It should be for my own growth.
So I think for my new habit, I am going to start doing my s.u.s.s. again. I don't think I have realy done anything with it since before my 3 year old was born.
We get home from church and our 1 year old goes down for a nap, but our 3 year old needs to start having some s.u.s.s. time too, so I will try to figure out a way to involve her also.
My s.u.s.s. has always included the following:
1.read something from a church book or magazine(not the scriptures)
2.personal scripture study
3.1 letter to someone
4. write in journal

So that is my inspiration for myself today, is to focus more on my spiritual growth. I feel that if you are not spiritually happy, its hard to be happy in anything else too.

Choosing to be healthy

o.k., I went to an awsome class on Saturday given by our lovely Karey! I loved the whole class, but one part that realy stuck out for me, and possibly because the gethealthy club is a part of my everyday life, was a part that they taught about eating, drinking, and rest, and exercise being essential to keep your energy vibrations high, and of course owning your own power(thats a very important one).I realy believe that, giving yourself the adequate amounts of each of those is so important. When I was on my salad diet, I think a lot of the reason why I felt so good, and lost the amount of weight that I did, was because I raised my energy and belief levels in all of those areas. I told myself I was going to do the diet and prove that it works, and by saying that I realy think I created a high energy for myself and it wouldn't have worked at all if I didn't believe it was going to work. When I started to quit the diet, I didn't eat horribly afterward, but I didn't lose any weight afterward either, nor did I gain anything. I was eating very healthy before, and had a balanced level of when I ate and what I ate, I was exercising everyday, I was drinking lots of water, and I am not sure about the resting part, but I don't remember feeling tired during that time of my life either. So Karey, I think among other things your class gave me, I realy needed to hear that part to get me going on a higher vibration of loving myself and my body and what it can do, and what I can do for it.They mentioned that eating a balanced meal every 3 hours and no longer in between will help maintain your blood sugar levels to help keep your energies high. They also talked about the importance of water, and how without it "you are living for death", so live for life and give your body lots of water!Rest, is something I have struggled with in the last little while, but Chris and I are working on changing it for both of us. We have both committed to sticking to an evening schedule that we prepared. Our work days are over at 5:30 pm. 6:00-A healthy balanced meal for dinner together as a family 6:30- Get ready for bed... Everybody's bath and Jammies, and brush teeth, set things out for tomorrow. As soon as we are done doing that we get to watch American Idol, or a show that is on between 7:00 pm and 7: 507:50- Read scriptures and prayers, and tuck in kidlets into bed.8:00- Chris and Julia time to wind down, with relaxing and watching a t.v. show, or playing on the computer, our free time to do what we want.9:00- Animals in and house lights retired on the main floor9:15-Chris and I talk time. I find that often when I try to talk to Chris about important things, he tends to get distracted and isn't listening contently, so I have set aside this time for us to address important issues, that we want eachothers full attention on. 9:30- personal reading, meditating, praying, winding down time10:00- lights out. I have asked Chris to commit to keeping this schedule on the weekends also for a few weeks ateast to get a good start on it.I have to say this "It is going to be easy!" It is easy to keep my house clean, It is easy to eat a healthy balanced meal every 3 hours, it is easy to drink lots of water during each day, it is easy to be at a healthy weight, it is easy to feel peace in my home, it is easy to exercise everyday, it is easy to get the rest I need, it is easy to choose healthy things to eat, and it is easy to be healthy! If I say its hard, then it will be hard, If I say its easy, it will be easy!Also, it will work! One more thing I thought of over the weekend. When I was experiencing my recent slump of overall energy, I found that I kept telling myself that "I need chocolate, or I need the buttery popcorn my mom was enjoying so I can enjoy it too!hehe or I need ice cream.I almost told myself this morning that I needed a snack. Instead I am choosing to tell myself that I don't need comfort foods. I can say "I am choosing to eat some chocolate", or "I am choosing to eat some buttery popcorn", but I don't want to tell myself that I "need" those things, because I realy don't need them! I just enjoy them! Or I can I don't need chocolate, and avoid it all together.What I do need is food and water that will support the healthy body that I have been given, and I enjoy those things too! yay! Well, now you know what my brain has been thinking about constantly since saturday! hehe
I love you all the way you are!
May you have a happy, healthy choosing to be healthy, and enjoyfull of energy day!!
Julia

Gratitude

I am sorry, its been a while since I have written, but I had some thoughts today that I wanted to share.
Recently my cousin introduced me to Dr. Emotos book about water crystals. I will have to look up the name of it. It is realy interesting to me.
Dr. Emoto found that water crystals change due to different things that it is exposed to.
Music, words written on paper and put near the water or on a container it is in, pictures, and prayer.
The crystals actually change shape, and they have found this by taking pictures of water in a room that is 5*c. They gathered water samples from various places and tested all of them, and they all showed the same types of changes with each exposure.
So my cousin said something interesting. If we know that our bodies are made up of 70%-90% water, then these changes must happen within us too when we are exposed to these different things.
What kind of words are we telling ourselves, are we harsh to ourselves or are we gentle and loving? What kinds of music, or pictures, or environments are we surrounded by? One study of a major water source in Japan I think, was so polluted that when they tried these tests on it, the water crystals didn't change at all. Are we so polluted that we don't react otherwise? What kinds of things are we exposing ourselves to, or better yet giving or treating our bodies to?
Well, one phrase that I have learned to say for energy healing, is "Love and harmony surround me". My daughters have had some little colds recently, and they both delt with pinkeye once. My 1 year olds eye was starting to look sore again, after two rounds of antibiotics. I started to say this phrase to her, and it completely took my worry off of it, which held back my negative energy about it, and I felt like she would be just fine. I would say to her "Love, grattitude, and harmony surround this child. All is well."
Turns out she just had a little cold in her eye this time, and it didn't get worse, and she was fine the next day.
So this morning. My daughters both have a little runny nose, and a bit of a yucky cough. We have had some red alert air quality in the valley for the past week or more, from a fire at a refinery. We had a major inversion that is taking a while to clear up, and it has caused a lot of health problems for people.
I prayed for rain, to help clear the inversion, and I am sure many others have been praying to have it clear up as well, and in the middle of the snowy winter, it has rained twice since I prayed for it. I haven't seen rain for a long time, just snow.
It was stake conference today, and my husband stayed home with the little ones. I looove stake conference. It is such a wonderful meeting that gives me such a spiritual high. I love hearing from our church leaders, even if I have heard it all before, it never gets old because I take something new from what they say everytime.
Our Stake building, is only a couple blocks away. I couldn't find my keys to drive and I was in a hurry to get there so I could make sure to get a good bench seat, instead of the hard chairs, so I decided I would just hurry and walk there.
On my way there, I noticed the weather looked a bit like it was going to rain again, and the thought popped into my head that I was probably going to be walking home in the rain.
So conference was wonderful as usual, and I slipped my coat back on to go home, and my zipper wouldn't work. I thought to myself, "this is going to be a cold walk".
As I was walking home, and watching everyone else get into their sheltering vehicles, I almost wished someone in my ward would see me and offer me a ride home. I told myself it was good exercise and it would be over quickly.
Then I started to think about the rain, and the fact that I prayed for it, and I knew it was helping to clear out the bad air. So I decided to change my attitude about it.
I decided to say a prayer while I was walking, and I said "Thank you so much for the beautiful rain, and for its help to clear out the bad air, so that we can breath well."
It was still cold afterward, but then I couldn't help but imagine the rain catching every polluted partical in the air and dragging it down to the ground to be filtered, and being so thankfull for the moisture and realized that this rain was a gift that I attracted. When I thought I was miserable, I imagine I was telling the rain it was bad, and it wasn't going to do the best job of clearing the air, but when I started to be gratefull for it, I was telling it, it is good, and I am sure it is going to help our air quality so much! I looooove the smell of rain, and the smell of being outside after it rains. It is so fresh! I can't wait until it has cleared all the bad air out, and it is finished raining so I can go take a deep breath of the cleanliness it has brought about.
I am thankfull for the winter time, and for all the moisture it brings to the earth. We get a lot of rain here in the summer time, but in the past it hasn't been near enough to keep us from drought. If we didn't have snow during the winter, our mountain resevoirs would be empty, and we wouldn't get the fresh water from the mountains anymore and we would be in an even bigger drought. I am thankfull for all the moisture and sunshine we recieve to help with our quality of life.

Celebrate the life of little Adrianna Read

Celebration!!

I just got back from the most amazing funeral ever. I been to some that are just so depressing and sad, but this one truly lifted my spirits and I am so glad I went!!
My senior year in highschool, I had a seminary class at about 6:30 in the morning. I met this realy awsome and fun girl, who's name is Natillie. We became realy good friends, and I often think that she was a better friend to me than I was to her. The last half of my senior year I ended up transferring to a different school, and I remember her eyes twinkling with tears the day she found out I was leaving. That meant so much to me! We still lived in the same area, but now we would only see eachother during seminary and not during school anymore.
After I graduated, we didn't see eachother very much at all, and the last time I have seen her in person was when I got married to my dear husband almost 6 years ago. I finally found her on facebook.com a couple of months ago, and found out that she was married too, and was pregnant with a little baby girl! I was so excited for her!! And so excited to have come in contact with her again.
Yesterday, I looked at her facebook status and my heart litterally broke for her. Her sweet little 6 week old baby girl Adrianna passed away. At first I couldn't believe it, but then all I wanted to do was cry for her and hug her! I never got to meet the little angel and I wish I had been a better friend to go and see her.
I went to the funeral today, and I am amazed at the strength Natillie and her husband Joe have shown. She sang a beautiful song to her little girl and then talked about her, and told us how much she loved her baby. She talked about the last time she got to hold her, and how she didn't think she would ever get to hold her again, and how she just felt so rich! She talked about being a little jealous of her, because what she has done in her 26+ years of being here, Adrianna was able to accomplish it in just 6 weeks. Her ability to lighten our spirits with giggles while she spoke, showed me how strong she is, even though I know this has got to be such a hard thing for her.
At the beginning of the funeral, she got up and said she wanted everyone to snuggle. So everyone got up and gave her hugs. Natillie has always had such a happy and loving personality, and for her to make it that much easier for everyone else to feel happy, just realy was neat!
After the funeral was over, she was giving hugs again and everyone that came up to her, she gave the biggest and longest hugs to. When it was my turn, she realy showed me how much she cares for me, even though we never see eachother, and I walked away from there, thinking, what an amazing friend I have missed out on all these years. I realy hope I will never take hers or anyone elses friendships for granted. It meant so much to me to me to hug her today, and to watch her say goodbye to her precious angel with such strength was just so uplifting and hope filling to my own self. I went to the funeral with a fear of how this traumatic event would affect me with my own fears of making sure my little ones are healthy and well taken care of, and with me, and left with peace in my heart knowing that I am so blessed to have the family and friends that I have, and my little girls, and that no matter what happens, we have a loving heavenly father that is in charge of everything, and he loves us and if we remember him, we will always have the comfort and joy that we need to get through this life. Thank you Natillie and Joe for your amazing examples. I know it will probably be rough for a little while, but I know you will do just fine!
I love you!!
Love, Julia